Chapter 40 - “The Death of Dreams”
Peter Vining’s patience with his sister-in-law Amelia Stoddard Vining lasted approximately three weeks; a period of time rather longer than he had expected immediately upon his return. He ate heartily of Hetty’s good cooking at every meal, sleeping deep and restfully at night in his own room, only a little troubled with bad dreams and the wistful conviction that he would step out of his room at any moment and encounter his mother, Doctor-Papa or his brothers. The memory of their voices, their footsteps echoed all the more loudly in the empty house where they had lived. For quite a few days his ambitions went no farther than that and to do nothing more strenuous than to put on some of his old suits of clothing, which Hetty laid out for him, still smelling faintly of the herbs and camphor in which they had been stored away.
He had wondered why Hetty and Daddy Hurst remained, when they so obviously got on so badly with Amelia but a visit from Margaret’s lawyer and executer for her will provided a partial answer; his mother had provided them with pensions, and the right to live on her property for as long as they cared to stay. Margaret had seen to that in her usual efficient manner; the will was air-tight and her bank account and investments secured, although thanks to the war pitifully smaller than they would have been otherwise. No wonder Amelia was on edge – Margaret had boxed her in very neatly, leaving her with no other place to live other than returning to her father’s house.
On a morning about two weeks after he returned, Peter bundled up the tattered coat, shirt, and the cavalrymen’s trousers he had worn home from the Army. He intended telling Daddy Hurst or Hetty to burn the filthy and ragged things. Amelia intercepted him at the bottom of the stairs, popping out of the doorway to the dining room like a dancing figure on an ornamental clock at the sound of his feet on the stairs. Lately she had begun doing that, turning up unexpectedly no matter what room of the house he was in.
“Oh, they shall do no such thing!” She exclaimed, heatedly, upon cross-examining him over what he had planned for what remained of his uniform clothes. “How could you think to do so! They are relics – sacred relics of our gallant struggle for liberty and rights! Burn them, indeed. Give them to me, Peter!” She took the bundle from him, and to his astonishment, held the unsavory things to her as if they were something worthy of protection. “I will see to it they are mended and suitably preserved, dearest brother… in memory of our cause!”
“Fancy talk for a bunch of rags,” Peter answered, nonplussed. He went out to the kitchen anyway, shaking his head, thinking that Amelia was being damn sentimental over something he wouldn’t have given to a tramp for charity. Daddy Hurst and Hetty were the only sensible people in the house, it seemed like. Daddy Hurst chuckled knowingly when he said as much.
“Miz Amelia cain’t never do enough for the cause,” Daddy Hurst said, “‘Specially now.” And Hetty sniffed as if she disapproved, adding with a pointed look over her shoulder as she laid a place for breakfast for him.
“You best beware, Mr. Peter – there are causes and there are causes. Once Miss Amelia sets her sights on sommat, she does not take no for an answer.”
“Most assuredly, I do not,” Amelia herself announced with enormous satisfaction, appearing in the doorway – again just like one of those mechanical dolls. Everyone started, as she stepped into the kitchen, her skirts rustling indignantly, and she looked at the single place at the kitchen table. Her lips trembled with crushing disappointment. “Oh, Hetty,” she added, “I thought it was understood – we take our meals properly, in the dining room!”
“I’d rather eat in the kitchen,” Peter answered mulishly, but his sister-in-law only laughed, a pretty tinkling laugh as she took his good arm.
“Oh, don’t be ridiculous, Peter… one can’t take meals with the servants – even those who have ideas above themselves. It’s just not proper!” She added, over her shoulder to Hetty as she escorted Peter towards the dining room, “Another place – in the dining room, Hetty.”
On the whole, Peter would have preferred the kitchen, to the all-but empty table in the dining room, where young Horrie kicked his heels against the legs of a chair too tall for him. He and Horrie exchanged sympathetic looks; Horrie dogged his footsteps also, but it did not annoy Peter in quite the same way. Horrie craved attention and he was lonely for company, over and above Hetty and Daddy Hurst, who treated him with considerable affection. But they were old, and had their own work about the place. Peter wondered why Amelia did not want to send him to school. Privately he thought she wanted make a constant display of her maternal devotion, for she really seemed to care little for him, other than as an intelligent pet who talked. Horrie did not seem to care all that much either, to judge by the way that he squirmed out of Amelia’s lap when she took him up onto it, or the way he turned his cheek away from her kisses, enduring such demonstrations with a stoical face, “And you should rightfully sit at the head of the table,” Amelia added, as a tight-lipped Hetty carried in a tray with a fresh pot of coffee, and another place setting on it. “You may move my place to the right, Hetty.”
“It seems very dull without any boarders,” Peter took the chair at the head of the table, from which his mother had always presided, feeling as though he were usurping a place to which he had no real right. Behind Amelia’s back, Hetty’s lips twisted soundlessly in agreement, with a Gaelic imprecation added for good measure. “Had you not considered continuing as my mother did? It always made for the most interesting meals.”
“Oh, really Peter,” Amelia laughed, that irritatingly sweet tinkling laugh, “I couldn’t possibly engage in a business as vulgar as running a boarding house! Imagine - all those strangers and their impositions! It’s just not suitable for a respectable woman to do!”
“It was respectable enough for my mother,” Peter answered, and Hetty added spitefully,
“Aye, so it was, Miss Amelia – an’ what d’ye say to that?!”
“Hetty!” Amelia sounded desperate. “I am talking about family…”
“And we’re not family?” Hetty answered crisply, and set down the coffee pot with a decided thump, “Sure and the mistress did not think herself too good to work in the kitchen next to me, or bargain with the tradesmen, while some as I could mention sat in the parlor, all airs and graces an’ la-te-dah! Not family?!! ‘Tis why herself did what she did, leaving Hurst and I our lifetime in wages… and said clear that we should live here as long as we liked! No one otherwise would do a lick of work, Miss Amelia, while the house fell down around ye…”
Horrie listened, round-eyed and wary. Peter wondered of he had often observed this kind of scene, while Amelia’s eyes filled as if being berated by Hetty were the greatest tragedy imaginable. Peter cleared his throat and asked,
“Hetty… might I have some breakfast now?” Hetty’s ill-temper vanished magically, and she beamed fondly at Peter and Horrie,
“Of course you may… here I am, forgetting myself again, with you and the little lad waiting on me!” She bustled away, as Amelia dabbed at her swimming eyes.
“She does so forget herself,” she quavered, “I know that your dearest mama carried on so bravely… under such a tragic loss! But times were so different, Peter. No one thought the tiniest bit ill of her, then. But times have changed and I am helpless…”
And quite willing to remain so, Peter thought, cynically. Mr. Stoddard’s gently raised daughter would rather sit in genteel poverty in the parlor of an empty house than carry on from where Margaret had been forced to lay down the labor of caring for her family. He reached across the tabletop for the coffee pot; Amelia touched his hand and raised her eyes winsomely,
“But now that you have returned, you shall be able to look out for our interests… all of our interests,” she added and it took Peter more than a moment to take in the implication. “Mother Williamson reposed such confidence and trust in you, Peter… she had such hopes of you returning safely, and of all of us being a proper family again.”
Peter gently slid his hand out from under hers, carefully to keep his face utterly blank; Amelia, setting her cap at him? Good god, what a thought! He poured himself coffee, while Amelia continued artlessly, “I would so much rather be guided by someone stronger and wiser… I have no head for such worldly matters…”
“There’s always your Pa,” Peter pointed out. He was amused to see a flash of irritation with him in Amelia’s lovely eyes. “Man of business… none better, to look after your interests.”
“Not like a husband would be,” Amelia said, as Peter thought with annoyance, As if her looking at me with eyes like a cow would make me change my mind – how much of a malleable fool does she think I am? That worked with Horace, but I’m damned if it will work with me!
“No, probably not,” he answered agreeably, “So promise me one thing, ‘Melia – Let me look over any of the suitors you are thinking serious about. I am Horrie’s uncle, after all.”
On the whole, he thought later, he was lucky she didn’t throw the coffee pot at him. She was that riled at him deliberately missing all the hints she scattered like handfuls of chicken feed. But Amelia swallowed her considerable fury, saying only,
“I shall be sure of consulting you, Peter – being that you are the nearest to a dear brother left to me,” which said much for Amelia’s powers of ladylike self-control. Still, Peter didn’t think she would give up the matter entirely.
His brother’s wife was single-minded that way. He had been named co-guardian of Horrie. The largest portion of Margaret’s proper was left to him, including the house. She was a widow with a small son, the second beneficiary and with little inclination towards managing her own affairs. Looking around for someone who would masterfully take all these burdens from her, Amelia’s eyes couldn’t help but fall onto him. Against all those practical considerations and what she perceived as her overwhelming need, his disinclination was merely a small obstacle to be overcome. No doubt she thought it would be only a matter of time before she wore him down as she had worn down his brother, with tears and tantrums, and pretty displays of forgiveness and reconciliation. Peter had observed this from afar, indulgently thinking his brother could be forgiven that kind of soft-headedness; he had loved her, after all. But he did not, and had no intention of being maneuvered into doing as Miss Amelia wished.
In the end, he took counsel with Daddy Hurst – correctly figuring that Daddy Hurst’s little cabin, at the back of the house, behind the stables and the vegetable garden was one of the places he was safe from Amelia’s ambush. He went down in the evening, after supper, when there was still light in the sky over the weighted boughs of the apple trees, as the sun went down in a dark red smear of sky and purple clouds behind them.
“I’ve come for that drink of whiskey you promised,” he said, from below the porch, where Daddy sat at ease, slapping at an occasional late-season mosquito. One of his mother’s rules instituted firmly when he was small and adventurous; Wait until you are invited, Margaret told him sternly. But why, Mama – he’s jus’ an old nigra slave. Nonetheless, Margaret said – Hurst or anyone else, black or white, is due the courtesy of deciding when and whom he might invite into his home.
“’Bout time,” the old man chuckled richly, “Come on up, set a spell…” he gestured casually at the other chair, before fixing Peter with a shrewd and stern look. “How long you think befoah Miz ‘Melia, she track you down?”
“Don’t much care, Daddy – long as I can face up to her with a couple of drinks in me first!”
Hurst shook his head and rose painfully and in several stages from his chair,
“Marse Peter, it don’t do you no good a’tall to pour sperrits on your problems.”
“I guess not,” Peter agreed with a sigh, “But it does render them temporarily more amusing!” He settled into the other chair – surprisingly comfortable it was – as Daddy Hurst vanished into the dim doorway of his little house. He emerged with a dark glass bottle and a pair of battered tin mugs, silently pouring out a tot for each. Peter savored it in silence.
“To home,” he lifted the tin cup in a mock toast, and the old man echoed it. After a long moment, Daddy Hurst added,
“It ain’t the place, so much as dey people in it, Marse Peter.” Peter made a noncommittal sound, for Daddy Hurst had unerringly put his finger on it. He might be home, but the people who counted in it most – they were all gone. Margaret, Papa-Doctor, Horace, Johnny and Jamie; of all those who had fixed his mother’s house in his memory, and for whom he cared, only Daddy Hurst and Hetty remained… and little Horrie the only one of his blood family left.
“It’s not as if I can send her away from here,” Peter said, a little surprised to find himself thinking out loud. “She was my brother’s wife, after all. And Horrie – this is all the home he’s ever had.” Daddy Hurst nodded thoughtfully in the twilight. He topped up the tin cups, the bottle clinking gently against the rim. “Suit me right down to the ground if she sets her cap at some other fellow. Let him marry her, the poor bastard.”
“Meantime, they-ar Miz Amelia be, like a cuckoo in a nest.” Daddy Hurst sounded like he was savoring the whiskey. “Mebbe you might have some bizness of yo’ own, tahk you away for a time. Might give Miz Amelia a notion that you ain’t so much interested.”
“Something that would keep me way for a while,” Peter mused, thoughtfully, after a long moment. “I like that thought. I could say I’m looking for work, got itchy feet.”
“Mmmm,” Daddy Hurst topped up the cups again. “Got me jest the idee, now! You could say you wuz goin’ up to Fredericksburg, to see ‘bout Marse Carl’s fambly. They wus lef’ in a hard way, Miz Margaret she felt real bad ‘bout that. Don’ know if they is all dat better, even if de war is ober…”
“If they’re still in a bad way, I can hang my hat there for a while and help them out,” Peter ventured slowly. Daddy Hurst chuckled again and nodded
“An if dey ain’t – wal’ yo’ kin jes’ stay wit ‘em for a bit, and Miz ‘Melia, she’ll nebber know de difference.”
“Any port in a storm,” Peter agreed, philosophically. The more he thought on that, the better the notion sounded; away from his mother’s house, haunted with the memories of old happiness.
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